Through the Light and Darkness

Ever wondered why some people are incredibly stupid?
Ever wondered why some people are incredibly blind?
Ever wondered why some people are incredibly blur?
Ever wondered why some people are incredibly revengeful?
Most of them write their feelings in their blog,
private conversations become the topic of the public,
it is so incredible isnt it?

I never complained,
I never go against you,
I just want you to be happy,
8 months ago,
I didnt care that you were 10000 miles away from me
I still loved you,
without complaining that you were so far,
when you were sad I comforted you,
when you were happy I laughed with you
Im glad that you're happy,
to finally forget your past and looked towards the future,
I dont ask anything from you,
I dont want to give you any stress,
All I want is...
for you to be happy,
You can forget me,
But I'll be always watching over you,
lending my shoulder to you whenever you need one,
I love you,
for so long I still do,
I wont cry,
I'll smile for you,
for as long as you're happy...
I'll help whenever I can,
I wont ask anything in return
Just be safe,
thats all I ask,
I cant bear it when bad things happen to you..
I still can remember,
when you were sad,
I was the one who let you scold me,
when you were sad,
I comforted you,
never asking anything in return,
I do not expect you to read this,
for I have no one to talk to,
I just want to you to know that I will always be here for you,
even when you hate me,
I'll hide in the shadows watching over you..
I know to some people I'm hopeless...
I know to some people I'm stupid..
I cant take it when you're sad
all I want for you is happiness,
I'm not lying nor am I joking...
I'm glad that you found someone you love now
I dont ever want to see your tears again,
even if you cry,
I'll be there with a hankerchief and a shoulder for you to cry on,
when you're angry,
I'll let you hit me and punch me for how much you want to,
I wont retaliate,
when you need a hug,
I'll be there...
For so long...
The only one that I truly and really loved is you...

Coldest winter nights of the everlasting void of sadness,
coming down on me with tremendous force,
inable to shield myself from the wordless sorrows that befalls on to me,
raining piercingly with cold fury,
anger,dissapointment,futility,grief,sorrow,
reaching out to me,
grabbing me,
throwing me into the pit of darkest despair,
the final light has gone off into the embrace of darkness,
overflowing like the waves of pure ebony,
making its way into the heart of hearts,
slowly wending its way into the depths of the lights heart,
creatures of land and sky,
becomes demons and beings of darkness,
my world has fallen into chaos,
the final act has come,
the last judgement has arrived,
the one hand that holds the light has been broken,
despair,depression,
forever within me,
my world has fallen,
now and forever...

This is part two on my rant of people that I hate.
This is also a rant on my parents,
those who hate their parents,
enjoy the post,
those who doesnt better stay away,
I dont want to upset anybody.
Here goes.
Frankly,
I hate my parents,
I dont whether they're total idiots or just plainly stupidly paranoid
What I did not do,
they have to blow it up like a balloon and punish me for something that I did not do
Take my father for instance,
he blames everyone what he has done,
doesnt admit that he's wrong,
always finding a loophole in a argument,
shouts at everyone for no apparent reason,
stupidly praises himself,
thinking that he is always right,
no kidding,
he is like that.
Everything that I do,
literally everything,
he has to go against it.
I hate him.
As for my mum,
god bless her(any god mind you,no allah or god arguments please)
I do love her,
but sometimes her mouth really needs to shut up for awhile and think
sigh...
I hate him so much....
bloody child abuser

Sorry for blogging for so long,
alot has happened lately,
anyway
Dont you just hate it when things get messed up?
When you want something to go smoothly then somethings just prevents you from doing it perfectly?
Or when you do something then you screw up?
Like when you're driving and you accidently scratch your car?
Or when you're waiting for an important day,
then a complication comes out and makes you change your plans?
I hate it when that happens..
Then again,
without these life will be more boring
I dont know whether this is good or not..
These days are really stressfull
what with the family,work and the usual stuff
quarreled with Wai Wai lately
sigh...
Is it because I'm stupid?
or maybe its because im just tactless
someone please help me
Things are just getting more and more complicated each day
when will it stop?
I know this year is a bad year for the monkey,
but please,
can it be not that bad?
For once,
I would like to have one of my routines to go smoothly,
just once,
Is this the pay back for what I have done in the past?
Is this what they called karma?
Is this called payback?
Or
Am I just a chess piece to please the gods?
Is fate playing with me?
And Luck is shying away from me?
On another note,
I dont know why,
But when I say something it usually comes true,
Is this just a conincidence?
Or is it a special ability?
Sometimes I just realy hate myself
getting bad luck all the time,
but saying something and it comes true
dont you think it's funny?
A person having bad uck that gets to alter the future?
Well
Thats all for this post,
message me or anything if you want to talk to me

A new year,
new hopes,new dreams
May the light of the sun shine upon the path of which we will be taking
May the stars watch over us,
may luck smile upon us always
Happy New Year to all my friends and family^^

NO ONE TELLS ME ANYTHING!
NOT A SINGLE BLOODY PERSON TELLS ME ANYTHING
WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM????
YOU ALL TALK EVERYTHING WITHOUT ME LA NOW
you all goody goody fren d la
well fine
im stepping out from everything